Can I do this?

I would have thought at least a thousand times before posting this as it is going to be really personal and I am just pouring out the turmoil going on currently in my mind.

Should I drop out from blogging? This thought has already drained out all my energy and this sudden shift in my mood and thought process has confused my mind and body. This tsunami of questions is unable to find its way out from my brain.

I must admit for once that I do not have any dream to be an author in future or publish any book. I go through several blogs and I read about them having ambitions to do something significant in this writing field and I am left feeling-I am in the middle of the ocean thinking how the hell did I get here!

The reason why I had started this blog was not because I wish to be a writer but because I tend to be a listener and thus at the receiving end most of the time all the time. So for at least a few moments you readers put on my shoes and take time to read my thoughts and it simply gives me immense pleasure. The belief that “yes, there are people out there who are willing to listen to you too” takes its position back into my mind.

And truly I want to thank each one of you out there reading this for not wearing those judgmental hats and reading the post patiently. *A bear hug*

Wait! Where am I actually heading? No where. Because I am currently going through an emotion of I-don’t-know-what’s-happening. Strangely, I land myself in such flooding and yet no-thought feeling many a times. (Pondering is it just me who is this weird.)

Whenever I hop into some blogs and get that I-want-to-visit-this-blog-again feeling, I wonder, do I pass out similar waves? And this is the only thing that’s torturing me for a while and this thought is just refraining to move out and clear my head.

Obviously, its just my mind playing tricks again to harass me and by not entertaining it, it will just pass out.

So finally my stupid thought has come to a halt at the end of this post and this therapy of writing my emotions down has worked wonders again.

Dear readers, I love you all ^_^

 

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40 thoughts on “Can I do this?

  1. Awwwwhh!! Doll, you’re terrific.. It isn’t about what you wanna be, but the fact that you enjoy it.

    Please don’t drop out!! It’s just a phase, I promise you’ll get over it!! Just take a back seat for a few days, just go on a reading binge, comment on blogs.. And you’ll just get that drive back, well I’m sure ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜

    Take care!! Much love โค๏ธโค๏ธ

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  2. Hi,

    Don’t drop out.

    Personally I have come across, many a times that I am lost in the crowds and never heard. And at times a agony aunt or a silent listener and observer. Writing for me has been the best medium where I express my thoughts and feelings in my way. Moreover, it’s wonderful how people are able to connect to what you think. I feel I am not alone on this journey. And most importantly “I am heard, and not lost in the herd.”

    You amazingly put across your thoughts. Don’t give up on blogging. It’s just a vent out or an out pour. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  3. I didn’t think I’d live to see this day! I had given up hope of meeting a fellow blogger who either hadn’t written a few novels already or was in the midst of writing one! I can’t tell you how refreshing it is to meet a blogger who wants to just blog and read. Thank you for telling me that you exist, because if you hadn’t, I might have given up blogging, depressed that I am the only one who didn’t aspire to be a writer. An awesome post.

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      1. Reshma, I don’t have the gravity to be a writer, so I don’t aspire to be one. I blog because it’s fun to meet people and talk. Honestly, I am more interested in interacting with the commenters than I am in writing posts ๐Ÿ˜€

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  4. Yes, you can do it! Belive that! We all have moments like this. We all feel insecure, not good enough or not at the same page with everybody else. But all this will make you stronger, trust me. Even if you don’t want to become a writer, don’t stop writing. I like your posts. And because of that I nominated you for One Lovely Blog Award 2016. So belive in yourself and know that this will pass. xo

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  6. emotional and I-don’t-know-where-this-is-going posts are maybe the best ones! They give you a glimpse of the person… only by being a listener you become strong enough to tell stories ๐Ÿ™‚ You may not want to write novels or books but you are writing wonderfully on this blog. I wrote a post about it someday back, writing is good for you… and trust me writing is fun when you are not trying to write a novel ‘cuz maybe novel just happens! hahaha have fun girl ^.^

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